I created the .gif below – let's call it a short meme production – over a year ago, in August 2021. The process of creating it worked as a kind of therapy session, during my summer holidays, at a time when I was particularly down and exhausted. Little I know that one year later, in this last Summer, I would be much worse.
I didn't even have a purpose for it, it was just something I had to put out. It was a reflection on how digital rights are being defended in Portugal, and in some other countries. The situation is so ridicule, the asymmetries are so extreme, that I sometimes wonder if we are really brave or just fools. I guess we are both, we must be.
It's been 6 years. We built a great momentum, we have done SO MANY things. But it's so exhausting. I wonder how much further this stoic resilience can take us. I don't know the answer, but I know that this is not sustainable in the long run. I fear that, eventually, everything will go to waste.
Some days are better than others. Some days we feel we can take up anything, some days we feel as powerless as we are. Just like the meme shows. Some days it doesn't seem worth to continue.
One year+ later, in a particularly difficult day, I guess publishing it and writing these words is itself another therapy session.
Warning: strong language